Home?

Home, it can mean so many different things. It can mean the place where you were born, the place where your loved ones are, the place where you put your ass, and now even an online 3D community on your Playstation 3. Home to me is a place where you feel, that's right: like home, you feel comfortable and you are enjoying yourself. I don't think Sweden is home for me any more... I adapted so well to the U.S-way of life, I have my life there and I feel free in a completely different way than I do here in Sweden.
The biggest thing for me was that I now have realized that I have come so far in my personal development, the sad thing is, it feels like everything here in my old home is the exact same as it was when I left. Everyone is exactly the same, everything is exactly the same, and everything looks exactly the same.
I don't think this is anything weird, and I certainly doesn't judge anyone for not changing, it's just natural when one are living in the same city, hanging out with the exact same people and do the exact same things all the time. I had to change, I had to stand on my own feet, getting a license, doing my taxes, buying food, make a budget etc. Otherwise I wouldn't have made it over there. That's why it's strange to be back here living with my parents again... it's like I traveled back in time 'til when I was 15.

I'm going back the 17th of July, but I'm regretting taking even that much time for a visit back to my former home. A week has passed since I landed here in Stockholm and it feels like it has been a year. Time is crawling by, and no matter what I do it feels like I'm misplaced. Don't get me wrong, meeting my friends and family again has been great, but that's it. Now I feel like I've pretty much has done the things I wanted to do here and I have 3 weeks left in this country... 3 weeks. I'm bored... bored, bored, bored. Which is strange since I didn't do much during my summer break in the U.S... At least I knew that I was able to do whatever the fuck I wanted to do over there. If I wanted to go and buy a hand gun... I could. I would never do that, but it's nice to know that I have the possibility. Or not... I'm rambelling.

Bottom line is, this might have been my home once upon a time, but my home is now in a land, far far away; the land of possibilities, the land of murder, the land of hypocrisy... my home.

This is SPARTA!!!!

300, omg, it was unbelivable!! Everyone should see it, great great movie! And all those people who think that it's some Republic propaganda... think again. If anything it is the opposite, I see the Spartans as representing terrorists and the Persians as the Americans, if anything. I don't get how people can see it the other way around. Anyway, great screenplay, great atmosphere, great acting and awesome special effects! It completely blew me away! As I said, screener is out, or wait untill it comes to movie theatres in Sweden. It's a must see at least, no matter how you do it!

And the picture I posted of a car on here is not a picture of my car specifically. It's just a random picture of the model, or well.. not even that because when I registred the car they said that it was a different model than what I thought it was (It doesn't say on the car what model it is), but it looks very smiliar, it's just an upgrade! It's a Geo Prizm (my Nizm), and not a Metro as I thought! Which is cool because the model I bought is actually more expensive than the one I thought I bought! And the color is Plum, and "whine red" is not a color here, dad :P

There is something awesome coming to the Playstation 3 system soon!! It's called "Home" and is basically a online 3D community, like MySpace only that it's in 3D. You have an entire world where you can walk around, chat with other players, play simple games, like pool, watch trailers of upcoming games or visit your trophy room filled with trophies that you've earned in different games. You get your own apartment which you can design however you want, put a flat screen in and show your videos streaming from your PS3's hard drive or play music also streaming from your PS3's hard drive! Very cool. The greatest feature though is that game developers can have their own room where they can promote their upcoming games, for instance if a basketball game is going to be released they can have some stations where you can try to shoot some B-ball. Incredibly cool!!! You can view a demo of the new feature here! The closed beta is released in April, so if you have a PS3 and want to sign up for it, you can do that here!

If anyone has bought a PS3 and wanna play or chat or anything, my gaming name is Gogaku, so feel free to contact me!

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